every day i wake up and i have to ask myself "is my life worth living?" there is so much strife in my life that sometimes i find it hard to bare. most of my problems start with the fact that i am adopted. my dad molested two of my three sisters. people think all four of us were molested but it can not be proven. i was taken out of my home at the age of 2months. from that time to the time i was adopted at the age of 2years old. i went through 12 foster homes. because of that i have a love deficience dissorder. it is almost impossible for me to feel love from others. i view what people call love as acts of kindness not love. because i grew up seeing nothing as love i learned at a very early age that to protect myself i had to put up walls. so every time i felt threatened(emotionally) i would through up my wall. and i am still strugling with that. i have never had any friends. there is only one person i have ever loved and she does not even love me back, that hurts, a lot. these things i have listed are just a sample of the deep dark secreats that haunt my life. i bare pain that i cannot seem to get rid of. i have parrents who have disowned me and hate me, and blame every thing that has happend in our family on me. people of my generation, my own peers discriminate me, for reasons i do not know, what is my purpose in life? i know what God wants me to do but the opression i am under is keeping me from him, sighhh i dont see a point in my life