Im going on a cruise in to days ahh :). Im so exited God is great, I went to the fair with Jake it was ausome. Im hoping this schoolyear i will get so much closer to God he means so much to me ! :)

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thing can be soo great and turn soo not great things are just soo confusing why do things have to be like this errrrr

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i think Gd is testing me to hold on to him as much as i can throu a lot of confusion and to go throu it to learn something valuable...God works in weird ways but hes great !

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today i am really struggling with regret even though i know the things ive done have made me stronger im still hurt its like i cant get rid of the pain i did stupid stuff before i was a christian and it sucks cause it seems like everyday theres always something to remind me of those stupid things and it hurts it hurts alot and the theres the decistions ive made as a christian were i rgret them or i still dont know if they were the right decitions fior example i decided to move to my dads house at the beggining of summer i thought it would ve ausome big room hanging out with my cousins (who are great freinds of mine) everyday being on dance team ... but then i started having douts and i really felt i was being drawn to stay with my mom and with my youth group so i decided to listen and i quit dance team but the thing is is i absoulutely love dancing  and my dad had already paid like a 125 dollars for clothes and stuff and plus i hurt my cousins who really wanted me to move  i know im not gonna move there for sahure now but it sucks not being ablle to do dance wich is something i love very much ...i face decitions every day that drive me insane because one was orantother there gonna hurt me like right now im trying to decide weather i want to do home schooling or not there soo many great things that come with it but som many things that ill miss ..... life is soo confusing i wish i new what was the best choses for my decitions ...i wish i didnt regret things from the past.....i wish silly things like boys wouldnt get in the way of things ...i wish could make these things happen cause wishing really deosnt make a difference haha ....

God is good

renie:)

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wow things have been crazy soo much has gone on livin for God is great but not easy ..... recently one of my best friends i guess decided she didnt want to be a christian and thats the second time she has done this i gues she wasnt actully a christian and her heart wasnt in it in the first place but she seemed soo into it soo happy it kills me to see her soo hurt these days she has a boyfriend who treats her like crap and im pretty shure he just wantees her for sex wich she has given him and that saddens me to death i want her to know God and i try to be the best influence that i can but its hard sometimes because she new me when i was having a hardd time and not living for God i want her to be happy i care for her she really needes prayer she needs God!......i also have this friend who says shes a christian i love her to death but i really dont think her hearts into it sometimes things she says makes it sound like she is but she doesnt have the greatest influences in her family they say there christians but they getr drunk party cuss ect. but i really think my freind could have a great realatoinship with God she just needs to understand how and idk how to show her....then i have this other friend who i care about deerely and she thinks church is crap pretty much and she call me the little good churchy girl ive tried to witness to her but she didnt want it ive tried to show her that you can have tons of funn and be a christian but she still deosnt want anything to do with it....me welll me ive been trying soo hard to be bestest freinds with God and envole him in everything but of course i slip alot wich sucky but im happy that im getting better and doing more and more things that God wants me to do ive recently relized that boys well are way better as freinds and if you cant find a guy that you like on the same level of a realtionship with God as you are well then mabie dating isnt the right thing for you at this time ya boyfriends can be ausome but being single is ausome and you also dont always have to like someone it could just be pulling you away from God have guy freinds there much better have funn be crazy its important to have funn.... God is good...... God is great......holy holy holy is the lord who rulles over all isaiah 6:3

:)renie:)

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