2009-Jun-25 - i'll never know how much it cost. |
| i felt led to write this, i don't know why.
my life is so confusing right now. the other day at work, my dad's friend had a beam dropped on him, and it crushed his skull. my dad has been really depressed, and they're trying to fire him for some reason. he'll be without a job within a week, and my family struggles enough as it is. i'm kind of losing the people that matter to me, i really don't know who my friends are. i'm struggling with a lot of problems inside me that are trying to push me from the Lord, and it seems they won't go away.
the oddest part is, it doesn't bother me too much. God knows what's inside me, and He knows EXACTLY what is happening. i KNOW that NOTHING will ever happen that doesn't bring praise to Him. the ways he works in my life just astound me. i guess it's a good thing i can't comprehend all that He's doing right now, because if i did, i think it would build up my ego, thereby taking glory from the one true God. trusting God is one of the hardest things people can do. but i guess that's what faith is, trusting in what you can't see. God fills me with such a spirit, a spirit of intense longing, a longing for the purification of my iniquities. "then sings my soul, my Savior, God, to Thee, how great Thou art, how great Thou art!" it never rang so true. praising is the best thing ever. i've come to find that saying no to temptation is quite easy. if i feel overwhelmed by the power of Satan, all i need to do is stop worrying. i pray, and i praise. there is no mightier weapon than those. i don't see how people can find prayer boring, i find it to be exhilarating just to be in the presence of the One who can DO ANYTHING! EVERY SINGLE THING ON EARTH IS IN HIS CONTROL! MY GOD HOW GREAT YOU ARE!
and the best part is, it's free. all of this comes at no price. all God asks for is your repentance, love, and adoration. i pity the poor souls who take advantage, or even reject, such a mighty gift. all of the things God has done for us, and they still say no? God goes head over heels about us, He's just like a teenage boy who writes little love notes to the girl he's crushing on. hey, i guess that's true, we have the Bible, don't we?
i'll never be able to grasp God's love for us. i'd have to say the mightiest and hardest thing He's been able to do for me is just to simply forgive me. i KNOW i have a clean slate, even the things i have trouble forgiving myself for.
it's all because of Jesus i'm alive, it's all because of the blood of Jesus Christ that covers me and raised this dead man's life. IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF JESUS I'M ALIVE! |
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2007-Jun-15 - My life with Christ so far. |
As of March 6th, 2007, I was a Christian. That night, my best friend Caleb visited my house with a couple friends of his, Kara and Kara's mom. I was reading something on the computer when they rang the doorbell. I didn't expect it to be for me, and I was surprised when my brother told me who was here. I got up and Caleb asked "Would you like to come to Sunday School with me?" Now remeber, at this point, I wasn't a Christian. "Sure." I responded, and they asked if they could talk with me. I led them to my kitchen table and we all sat and talked about God. I am glad to say that that night I accepted Christ into my life.
Ever since then, I have been trying my hardest to be Christ-like. Although there are times when I revert to the old non-Christian Koty, I feel I have been doing a good job. I have stopped doing things a Christian certainly shouldn't be doing, and started doing things a Christian should.
I attended church with Caleb for the first time on March 11, 2007, and it was one of the greatest experiences I've ever had. That morning, I stood up in front of my whole church (and a lot of people go there) and confirmed my faith in Christ to my pastor and church. By the way, my pastor is Caleb's dad. I began regularly attending church, and after a few weeks I began going to my church's youth group on Wednesday nights.
As of right now, I can honestly say that my whole life is under the control of Christ, and when I do things, I am mindful of the popular phrase "WWJD?"
On April 29, 2007, I was baptised during church. Sadly, my family did not show up, as they are not Christian, but it was great to see all of my friends looking up at me (my church's baptistry is set in front of the whole church). To this day, I will never forget the words my pastor spoke as he baptised me: "Buried in the likeness of His death, (here I am dunked under water) (here he raised me out of the baptistry) raised in the likeness of His everlasting spirit."
Giving my life to Christ was the greatest thing I ever could have done, and I am very glad I have done it. Nothing could have impacted me like that did, and none of you will ever hear me say I regret it. |
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